To those people who add flavors to our lives..To those who are always standing by … To those who are always there
Those people who put our lives together like a play.. those who work backstage.. those amazing people… whom without we’d all lose our ways…many and many times again… To them true friends…. to those people who put up with our worst moods… back us up on our crazy trips in life… guide us out of the dark tunnels… those who worry when we’re absent … smile in our presence.. draw smiles on our faces… share the milestones of our lives… those who truly deserve our love and respect… to those who left and to those who are still there for us..my words fail to thank you enough…but Thank you sounds like a good start .. With all the love god has ever made… Thank you a million times….and one (only view would get this)…

There are people who just don’t believe in things…. Like for example those who don’t believe in god, they are so determined that god does not exist, while others don’t believe in other kind of things…. the thing which i -believe- is a made up thing is Love…. some might think this is a curse while others would say “Poor you” .. i believe that love is a mask we put on life’s ugly face .. in order to be able to survive to keep going and to smile back at life …. someone once told me is that what I’m going through is caused by the doubts i have … that if i go into a relationship having doubts that this will eventually end it will end… after all you get what you expect (sometimes) .. and another friend said that the reason why i never found love is that i have great expectations… now the funny thing is that i know i lack the ability to love , or at least never met the person who i’d give all my feelings to … simply because i believe that there is only one lover in any relationship, the settler and the reacher ?? The settler goes for the reacher because they know that whatever might happen the reacher could never leave/cheat on or even hurt the settler , usually it’s the reacher who loves the settler more.. uh so why put my self into the equation ??? am i the settler or am i the reacher …..Hmmmm but wait a minute … why I’m i even thinking of that BEFORE i find that some”one”, speaking of which I don’t believe that there is “THE ONE” for each and every one of us … i think that the one is the person you end up marrying whether they were the perfect match for you or just a good match….or sometimes not that good of a match

Yet i would “love” to actually experience that … whether it was a lie or not , it would be such a great thing to experience it , maybe change my point of view and start looking at things differently ? a step that i believe i should make .. towards something i don’t believe in … but willing to … well if there is someone that could change this and ignite that flame inside me … i will owe them everything … I will give my self that one shot
giving my self a chance… maybe… tomorrow will tell me a better story than the one i write today… a song that i’d dance to … an anthem of my life… now that would be one important milestone …

Why would this happen…Why wouldn’t this happen… What if…What if…What if…. Questions that have always crossed my mind..

I came to a conclusion that we can avoid getting disappointed getting hurt or even losing  faith… it’s all about how high we set the bar…

you expect a lot then you get disappointed easily, Always leave space for things to happen.. don’t over plan stuff out.. and most importantly never trust 100%… sounds a lot like a pessimistic right?? it’s not about what part of the half full(empty) glass we look at… it’s just that getting disappointed so many times get us to think that nothing goes right.. that life is full of bad scenes when actually its not that bad…  WE SET THE BAR TOO HIGH… we expect a lot from everything .. nothing goes perfect.. but not everything goes bad…

For example drawing the perfect relationship in your head will definitely get you to dislike or even hate the reality you are living in , imagining that you have the perfect friend will eventually get you to lose that friend because the first little thing they do will get you disappointed.. i would love to learn how to lower my expectations, learn how to trust, learn how to avoid all that… and yeah maybe learn how to love.. for a change..

Why how when and what… are questions that sometimes bring unwanted information that lead to undesired situations… Learn how to trust is my highest priority … changing my self from the inside is almost as important… but do people really change and is someone able to forget what they’ve developed as they age?? does things go backward?? from not trusting to trusting again???  i will have to wait and see……

TRUST

Ahead of me is a crossroad … And i have Three options to choose from , I either keep going straight and continue with what i have, Go Right and expand my horizon to the fullest, OR Go left which would take me to the highway….

Whatever i may decide will definitely change the rest of my life….

It’s really hard to decide which route to take when you know that each and every one will have a different ending.. and once you hit the road and start moving ,there will be no other exit that would take you to any of the other roads… you could always U-Turn … but you never know if that crossroad would wait for you forever…

I shall take one of them and go as fast as possible, hoping that i will not regret making this decision in the future and that this would be the best decision i have ever made…

A true friend told me : “ Knowing that you’re on a crossroad is the first step in recognizing where you are, and will help you decide on where you want to go.” A.A , Truly said

Hoping for the best…